Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Get the juices flowing!

I miss writing. It's as though a part of me is lying dormant, waiting to be resurrected. Unfortunately, my creative juices seem to be frozen at the moment. My sixth writing assignment looks at me in the face, as though taunting me, telling me, "I'm still waiting...are you ever going to get me completed?"

I guess life's busyness got in the way. My daily schedule revolves around work and Osh Osh. My personal time with DH has suffered because of our respective schedules. There is also the additional busyness that comes with the renovation of the new home, the planning and the packing (something I am doing bit by bit at the speed of a worn out snail!).

When I think about all the things that needs to be done before the year end, I have to strongly resist the urge to run away, tearing my hair out and screaming like a mad woman or diving under the covers and staying in bed and not move a muscle, praying that the chores won't hunt me out!

We all know that thinking about things just makes them seem more insurmountable. The tasks at hand aren't all that difficult. I just need to focus, get off my butt and do one small thing at a time. Why is that so hard? Is it all in my mind?

DH asked me to be realistic and not kill myself by all my thinking. He said I think too much about the things that I need not think about and think too little about the things I should be putting my mind to work on. This was actually said in jest but I admit there is definitely truth in his words.

I agree that I have to be realistic. I have to put my writing on hold for now and focus on making the move to the new place as easy and as pleasant as possible. So having said that, I'm getting off this chair now and move my butt to get some decluttering done!

Monday, November 9, 2009

It's good to be home

It's so good to be home. Despite my apprehension and worries, the trip, on a whole, went well. Workwise, it was good to reconnect with my counterparts from the other regions. We were productive. We even had time for some short sight-seeing and shopping.
Both DH and Mum told me that Osh Osh was very well behaved in my absence. I spoke to DH and Osh Osh over Yahoo Messenger on some nights. It made my homesickness more bearable. DH took a lot of effort to record short videos of Osh Osh to cheer me up.
Mum said that Osh Osh was very excited on Saturday night, counting the hours till my flight landed. Mum had to strongly persuade him to sleep as my flight was only scheduled to arrive on Sunday morning.
DH drove to the airport to pick me up along with Osh Osh, my Mum and my inlaws. It was very special for me to be so warmly welcomed home. I bought Osh Osh a magician's start-up kit and he loved it. All throughout yesterday, he was trying out the tricks. He has mastered 2 out of the 21 tricks. I'm sure it won't be too long before he catches on and learns the rest.
DH and I had a lot of time together, thanks to my Mum helping us out with chores and keeping Osh Osh occupied. It was wonderful to reconnect with DH. I really missed him. I was jokingly telling him that I should go away more often so that we can have such special moments being reunited.
Overall, I feel calmer and more at peace. Yes, I have a million and one things that needs to be done but I'm not in a panic frenzy. Maybe, my perspective on life has changed somewhat. I am assured that despite the outward circumstances in my life, the inevitable problems and unforeseen incidents, God is in control and He will not let us bear more than what we can handle. I guess being alone those nights away has helped me appreciate what I have been blessed with in my life. Not to sweat over the small stuff and most things, no matter how demanding or urgent or upsetting they are, in general are actually small stuff.
The "big" stuff in my life is my family. They are well, happy and love me very much. I hope that I never lose this perspective again!